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Thu, Dec. 4th, 2003, 04:06 pm
101 ways to be hardcore

001) Be tough at all times.
002) Never cheer after a show... only clap.
003)Be open minded in a "punch people" kind of way.
004) Only the good hardcore bands have names that are sentences with bad grammar. Ex: Boy Hits Car, Boy Sets Fire, Skycamefalling, Boy Sets Car-fire.
005) Ankles are tough so bring your socks down into your shoes so we can see them.
006) Tattoos are tough especially when they are on your calves. See rule 5 on how to see said tattoo more clearly.
007) Wear your hoodie in the mosh pit because sweating like a wild pig makes you look tough.
008) Don't admit you listen to heavy metal.
009) Exception to rule 8: only admit you listen to heavy metal if you think it is ironic and you wear 80's cheese metal shirts.
010) Be a non-conformist, just like all your friends.
011) Practice hardcore dancing in front of your mirror and then try them out the next time Atreyu comes to town.
012) A hardcore band is only original if you call it something-core. Ex: screamcore, emocore, screamocore, mathcore, or medio-core.
013) Remember, it's fun to punch and kick kung fu style.
014) Keep it in the do-jo.
015) Real hardcore fans are called kids.
016) Complain how hardcore bands are playing with metal bands at all costs!
017) Have your own zine, website, production company, be in a band, or claim you are friends with the singer from Shai Halud.
018) Tell people you work in the music industry.
019) More ankles people!
020) Embrace everybody in the scene except for those people who are not you.
021) Refer to bands as old school or new school and then act tough again.
022) Pretend that you get Dillinger Escape Plan.
023) Shop at second hand stores and then go buy expensive shoes.
024) Beat people up and then go to bible study class.
025) Smoking, drinking, and having sex before marriage is too trendy. Real hardcore tough guys abstain.
026) Whatever you do, don't let the singer on stage ever sing in the mic. Make sure you grab it from him and sing in it yourself. After all, you do a better job singing than him. It's a wonder they didn't put you on the album.
027) Start your own hardcore band.
028) Have your logo resemble some random 80's product for nostalgia.
029) Talk about the scene any chance you get. Say as many obscure hardcore bands from NJ as possible.
030) If you are shy, start an emo band so you don't have to look at the audience.
031) People who know more bands than you are better than you.
032) Add the letter X before and after important words. Ex:
XhardcorekidX, XmoshfuckX
033) Never say, "Did you hear the new Strung Out?" unless you are attempting to be funny in which case stop it because hardcore kids are tough not funny.
034) It's merch not merchandise.
035) Hardcore girls must wear head bands at all times.
036) Stretch your ears out to look more intimidating.
037) The bigger you stretch your ears out, the more hardcore you are.
038) Your ears should be stretched out enough to accommodate a block of wood, a hubcap, or a penis.
039) People in the front row are best used as a ladder/staircase to reach your goal... steal the mic away from the singer.
040) When people ask you if you like a band always say, "I only like the old stuff" or "I haven't really gotten into the new stuff."
041) Buy all of that band's merch.
042) Wear your new merch at the next hardcore show.
043) Repeat 41 and 42
044) If you have to wear glasses, make sure they are thick, black framed ones.
045) Don't tell anybody, but make sure you try on your new vintage clothes and stud belt before heading out to see Poison the Well.
046) Never admit you don't like Hatebreed and go see them live 12 times a year.
047) Complain that they are playing with Slayer, but don't admit you actually like Slayer.
048) Complain at all costs.
049) Tag team hardcore dancing is cool.
050) Real hardcore kids are really struggling photographers.
051) You don't go to hardcore concerts, you go to hardcore shows. BIG difference.
052) Name your hardcore dance moves things like "The Mother Fuck" or "Kick That Guy's Ass Move" or better yet... stay home and cry.
053) Protect your body from swinging limbs by sacrificing your two arms.
054) Scream about love.
055) All age venues are important so you are not tempted to drink.
056) Claim you know a guy who knows a guy whose best friend was standing next to the guy who got his ass kicked during Converge, bash the hardcore scene, and then go see The Get Up Kids.
057) Anytime somebody mentions a band always say you know somebody in the band.
058) Wear your pins with honor! Shai Halud, American Nightmare, Minor Threat are the purple heart of valour.
059) Velcro shoes are cool.
060) Don't admit that you have a crush on the singer from Walls of Jericho. If somebody asks, say you respect her as a musician only.
061) Your band name should contain one of the following words: blood, murder, kill, victim and/or butterfly.
062) Print your band name as if it was on a bad printing press. Actual graphics are for posers.
063) Sleep on a portrait painted prettier then everyone.
064) 100 bands from around the world are to play in your city. All of them are the world's best hardcore bands. Every label represented, every hardcore subgenre present. The venue is the best all-ages venue in the world. Tickets are $1.00. It is your job to go around saying the festival should be free.
065) Record producers must make sure to pump the mid because mid is tough.
066) Re-issue your demos after every album.
067) When the band starts playing, everybody join hands and make a big circle so we can watch the big kids play.
068) Crying on stage makes you a professional.
069) Complain some more.
070) Album covers must be made at home on Photoshop by your good friend.
071) If you are from New York, NEVER smile in a promo pic. In fact, always try to cross your arms and look into the camera as if you are going to beat up who ever is looking.
072) If you are from New Jersey, NEVER smile in a promo pic either. In fact, try to look like you just lost your girl friend to the hardcore band from New York.
073) Never admit that emo is country music lyrics mixed with pop rock riffs and marketed by 17 year olds trying to make their friend be the next Dashboard Confessional.
074) American Idol is your worst enemy (but you voted for Ruben).
075) You can get away with glitter on your face as long as your stretched ear plugs are clear.
076) Fuck beer; got breast milk?
077) Bandanas are cool.
078) Bandanas with big X on them are cooler.
079) Bandanas with big X on them were cool last week, you poser.
080) Your best friend is a guy named XattackX from Jersey who you chat with on MSN everyday. He is coming to see you one day. Really.
081) Chunky breakdowns in your songs are original and you should continue to do them despite every other band doing them which is clearly a rip off of your band.
082) Judge other bands and always compare them to the socio-cultural effects of the band Integrity.
083) Look up socio-cultural in the dictionary and then get offended.
084) Green Day is the real reason you are still alive.
085) Describe your group of friends as "The Scene."
086) Obey the laws of the hardcore scene or forever be banished from the circle.
087) When somebody asks you what is hardcore respond with, "I am hardcore" then punch somebody in the face for looking at you wrong.
088) Keep punching.
089) Kick a little, too.
090) Punch.
091) Add a threat about their mother for good measure.
092) Pretend you won the fight then pickup your dismembered left arm.
093) You are wearing the same thing as the 40-year old gas pump attendant, but for some strange mystical reason you are cooler than he is.
094) Tell everybody that Trustkill Records is too trendy.
095) Did you stop acting tough? I saw you hug that teddy bear.
096) Pierce your tits and tattoo your body.
097) Straight bangs mean straightedge
098) Being vegan means you can't swallow sperm.
099) When in doubt, mock everything.
100) Take everything personally.
101) Assume this list is about you

Tue, Nov. 11th, 2003, 11:52 pm

Had a lovely day. Went into farnham and bought a new jumper, moulin rouge and signs on dvd, Dead famous - a book by Ben Elton, and spent £30 in Boots on girlie stuff! Went into smiths to see about my xmas job and had a chat with my lovely Dan, who is still as much of a darling as ever. Then Ric came over this evening and we watched Moulin Rouge then just sat and chatted and cuddled. On friday he's taking me out for lunch and we're gonna do some shopping, and i think we're going to schism together on thursday night oo which will be our first proper outing 'together' - weird but cool :)

Tue, Nov. 11th, 2003, 01:06 am

Smitten

Mon, Nov. 10th, 2003, 04:14 pm

Had a fun day at uni today, this morning me and Lauren and Jon all worked together on some stupid task we'd been given to rewrite articles for radio but we had a laugh, then at 12 we went into town to the pub as it was Hammi's 21st birthday. Lauren told me in secret that she has a huge crush on Jon. I KNEW IT!!! she's not sure if he feels the same way or not, he acts like it sometimes, but then other times he doesnt. She's also worried coz we're all stuck together for the next 2 years so if it went tits up it would affect the whole group. Anyway we sat and everyone but me drank for 3 hours solidly. I ended up sat on Jon's lap coz he wouldnt move, which normally i wouldnt think twice about doing but with Lauren sat across from us and me now knowing how she feels i didnt wanna upset her or her to think that i was abusing the fact she told me she likes him. I think she was ok tho. We got Will absolutely wasted. Will is only 17, he's the baby of our group and we had him doing shots of sambuca and baileys, drinking cocktails and pints. When they all staggered back to uni at 3 our lecturer took one look at us and was like, yeh, go home u bunch of pissheads!! so i got home 2 hours early yay!

Wed, Nov. 5th, 2003, 10:31 pm
Stolen from Cyb3rg0th in boredom! :)

hmm probably done this one before... who cares

eight songs that get stuck in your head frequently]
1. Poison the Well - Nerdy
2. Atreyu - Someones standing on my chest
3. Converge - Saddest day
4. Thursday - Understanding in a car crash
5. Remembering Never - Big Jims Mistake
6. Throwdown - Baby got back
7. Get Up Kids - Holiday
8. Hondo Maclain - Don't forget to feed the fish

[four beverages you drink frequently]
1. water
2. ribena
3. tropical squash
4. apple juice

[five tv shows you liked when you were a little kid]
1. Tea Bag
2. Button moon
3. Pob
4. Postman Pat
5. Fun House (all hail pat sharp's everlasting mullet!)

[four places to go in your area]
1. Quarantine
2. Schism
3. Plough
4. the beach

[four things to do when you're bored]
1. play on the internet
2. listen to music
3. read
4. do my nails

[four things that never fail to cheer you up]
1. Poison the well
2. Adem
3. Krud
4. Chocolate

[four things you can't live without]
1. music
2. friends
3. family
4. hugs

[about ten years ago *list three things*]
1. i was almost in double figures!
2. i was not much shorter than i am now (how depressing)
3. i liked BOYZONE!!!

[about two years ago *list three things*]
1. i was a pisshead
2. i was a nu metal kid
3. i stroked a policemans leg

[about one year ago *list three things*]
1. i was going out with James the photographer who now earns a months rent in one night (and i dumped him why?!?!)
2. i hung round with matt and terry loads
3. i wasnt speaking to Ray

[today...]
1. i wrote a 5 page assignment
2. i listened to music for 3 hours
3. i worried about Krud

[seven people you love]
1. mum
2. dad
3. Jenni
4. Krud
5. Kerrie (even tho i see her no longer she will always be my bud)
6. James Masters (i ran out of people)
7.

[seven things you dislike]
1. mini moshers
2. weak minded people
3. being sick
4. edge breakers
5. elitists
6. drugs

[seven things on your desk]
1. digital camera
2. speakers
3. CD's
4. TV
5. Phone
6. teddy bear
7. DVD

[seven facts about you]
1. I have people who care about me
2. I wish i liked vegetables lol
3. I'm soooooo hardcore (thanx Mike!)
4. I am soon to change my hair again (its gonna rule)
5. I get lonely and down a lot
6. I'm watching late night Hollyoaks
7. I have a secret crush :-D

[7 artists/bands/people should give a listen to]
1. Coheed and Cambria
2. Atreyu
3. Avenged Sevenfold
4. Poison the well
5. Terror
6. Remembering never
7. 18 Visions

[nine things you like about/in the opposite/same sex]
1. an ability to talk
2. Nice hair
3. A nice smile
4. good music taste
5. trustworthy
6. makes me melt
7. got that 'x factor'
8. its good if they drive
9. likes doin couply things like walks

[four things you would eat on the last day of your life]
1. cheese burger
2. chocolate
3. chicken pasta
4. pizza

[four records from your collection that you will never get tired of]
1. The Get Up Kids - Something to write home about
2. Poison the well - the opposite of december a season of separation
3. Atreyu - Suicide notes and butterfly kisses
4. Disturbed - The sickness

[four vacations you have taken]
1. Dominican republic
2. Rhodes
3. Portugal
4. Majorca

[four things you'd like to learn]
1. drums
2. bass guitar
3. how to read minds lol
4. how to DJ

Tue, Nov. 4th, 2003, 10:33 pm

Someone should stick a very large foot in my mouth. Then lean on it so it stays there. So i dont say the silly blonde things that i do. Oh dear oh dear oh dear. I met a guy, a really uber cool guy (no i dont fancy him) who introduced himself to me, and his name is Penfold. I didnt think people were ACTUALLY called that so i made a Danger Mouse joke, then regretted it straight away, and began to grovel profusely! Turns out people really are called Penfold! Who knew?! Why does the ground never open and swallow u when u need it to?!!

Sun, Nov. 2nd, 2003, 10:32 pm

Single again. It was hard and we both hurt but we're friends.

Sun, Nov. 2nd, 2003, 03:50 pm

Well its all sorted. Havent really said much about it in case it didnt happen but 9th July 2004, goodbye UK! yay! Got a 3 bedroom house in Kissimee, Florida, apparently its about 10 mins drive away from Disney World. Theres a communal pool for everyone to share, we coulda had our own pool but its too dear. Plus it would have been tiny. Apparently we do have a whirlpool in our backyard tho. My mum is so excited she cant sit still now she's been out and sorted it all out. The first thing she wants to do is drive to the Gulf coast, apparently its really really white sands and clear seas. We have our own man made beach, but i dont think its the same thing! The first thing i wanna do is go to a gig, American stylee! My mum has some friends out there who have 2 boys one a bit older than me and one a bit younger than me who said they'd take me, so cool! Wont be 21 yet which will restrict things a little, but only really on the drinking, and i dont drink anyway. Mum and Jenni are gonna find it the hardest, no smoking anywhere indoors and a lot of places outdoors too. Maybe they should give up before we go!

Thu, Oct. 30th, 2003, 10:56 pm

I dont usually publish the conversations i have with other people, but this chat i had with Krud earlier basically encompassed everything that is bothering me, and its easier than trying to explain how i feel. Bits are edited out tho, bits i didnt want people to read coz they're too personal. Some parts in here i think are still to personal, so i might edit them out later on. Another reason i put this in here is coz i want to remember it, i love Krud to bits.


Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
I love that picture
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
your eyes are soo pretty in it
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
aww bless
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
i was thinking about u coz i wanna be around u at the moment
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
strange coincidence I didn't go out huh?
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
lol it is
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
how r u?
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
I'm good thank you
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
Sorting things out
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
What about you?
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
Feeling any better?
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
feeling a bit better today, ate a bowl of soup today, first proper thing since sunday
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
I miss you
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
i miss you too
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
need a huge hug
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
always one waiting for you
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
is this disheartening my princess?
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
is what disheartening?
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
being ill
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
you seem...fragile
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
emotionally and physically
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
yeh i am pretty much
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
a lots happened today
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
my brains all frazzled it cant cope
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
i cant even stand up let alone deal with emotional diallemas
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
i keep crying at stupid things, like toilet roll adverts
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
im a vegitable
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
aww bless
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
whats happened today?

***EDIT***

Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
well that fucking sucks
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
any tears after?
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
only about 2
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
but they were there, i stopped them
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
I don't like to hear princess has been crying
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
you should never be sad
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
its a part of life
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
also
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
I wish it wasn't
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
i think ben has been messin about behind my back
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
how so?
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
ok, im not sure so bear with me, tell me if im being a bunny boiler
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
ok
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
i found a faceparty profile that had visited my page, looked, and it was ben, but just a seperate account to the one i know he has, i read it it was all exactly the same except under favourite person it said 'Saz, she's the sexiest sweetest thing i know' so i said earlier, oh i didnt know u had another fp page, and he said, err yeh, went back there a few minutes later and the favorite person bit had gone
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
could be two things
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
ok...
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
1. he's realised you spotted it freaked and is covering his tracks
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
which is what you think righgt?
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
yeh pretty much
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
2. its old and took it out cause its not true
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
who is "saz"
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
it was created on 21st october 2003
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
i dont have a clue who saz is
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
now that is suspicious
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
I don't think your being a bunny boiler
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
but there is not need to get over paranoid
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
i know
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
ask him who saz is
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
and the creation date is intrgiung
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
its just i know the type of things he was saying to me and stuff when he was going out with his last girlfriend so theres no saying he wouldnt do it to me
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
that is also a very good point
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
what do you want to do about it?
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
i dunno, i sort of just wanna go 'who is Saz?' and see what he says, but he doesnt know i know or anything like that i dont want him to think im stalking/obsessing etc
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
he knows you know
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
guaranteed
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
yeh i think so
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
otherwise he wouldnt have changed it
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
exactly
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
whats to be scared of?
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
and to be honest, if he didnt have anything to feel guilty about he wouldnt have changed it either
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
exactly
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
if it was old, he would of written "and steph is the best...."
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
im not scared for me, coz i want to end it, i just dont like upsetting other people
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
so what comes next?
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
well he was online a second ago but he's not anymore, and i know its the cowards way but id rather ask him like that than on the phone, i feel more confident in myself, it means im less likely to kid myself and back down
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
I don't think its the cowards way
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
I think its self protective
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
yeh well gotta look after number 1 and all that
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
are u gonna be around for much longer?
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
its just i think i need a snack or a drink or something im not feeling too hot
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
do you want me to be?
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
if ur gonna go its fine i dont mind honestly
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
I'll wait for you if you want
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
i dont know how long im gonna be, if i get all floopy my mum wont let me up our stairs till i feel better, so if ur here when i get back then yay, if ur not then that is also fine, you've been here for me and i appreciate it
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
well I'm thinking of heading to bed
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
stress is eating me up a lot
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
thats cool
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
you go get some sleep
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
just remember though I miss you and hope your okay
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
i miss you too, i'll see you soon i promise
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
I hope so
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
Take care okay Neff
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend says:
oki you too, nite nite xxx
Never let the mist of winter cloud your happiness says:
xxx

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